Tuesday, July 7, 2009

I am blessed

上个星期二拿到奖学金的信后,这一个礼拜里收到了很多祝福。很多朋友和同事都纷纷告诉我他们有多替我感到高兴。从他们的笑脸,我真的很强烈感受到了他们的喜悦,有些比我还要激动还要兴奋。有一个同事还在厕所和我拥抱了起来,我一方面怪不好意思,一方面却觉得原来身边都有很多关心我的人。I am blessed.

朋友在知道我拿到奖学金后通过Windows Live Messenger寄送了一首歌给我。我上个星期因为忙碌所以没即时打开来听。等到我终于有时间听的时候,我的心在陈绮贞唱出第一句歌词时融化了……

下个星期去英国
词/曲:陈绮贞

ho~ 你收了行李下个星期要去英国
ho~ 遥远的故事记得带回来给我
我知道我想要 却又不敢对你说
因为我已改变太多
    
ho~ 你改了一个名字也准备换工作
ho~ 你开始了新的恋情有一些困惑
我知道你想要 却又不敢对我说
因为你已改变太多
  
ho~ 你写了好几首属於你的歌
ho~ 这样的歌隐藏了太多苦涩
我知道你想要 却又不敢对我说
因为我曾是你 我曾是你
无话不说的朋友
    
因为 我们改变太多

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Destination Newcastle

Yes, people, as most of you have already known, the official award letter for a Chevening scholarship finally came. It came at a time when I was extremely busy at work last week. Hence, I could only share with you guys more details here today.

Last Tuesday, while I was about to leave office for an assignment at Jalan Sultan Ismail in the afternoon, I received an email from British Council, informing me that the award letter was ready. They asked if I would like to get them post the letter to me, or collect it on my own.

As Jalan Ampang (where British Council is located) is just a short distance from Jalan Sultan Ismail, I opted to drop by British Council after my assignment. [Of course, that was also because I could not wait any longer for the postman! I would collect the letter on my own no matter how far the office is! haha...]

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Do I need to say more about how I feel? It's been such a long journey! It's been 1 year and 4 months since I started doing research on the universities in UK in March 2008 and later preparing my application for the scholarship.

I had received offers from all the four universities that I applied for, but finally I put Newcastle University as my first choice. I'll be studying MA International Multimedia Journalism there beginning this Sept 21, and I can't wait to start a new life in Newcastle upon Tyne!

When I'm writing this post, I'm also referring to the questions sent by Haan last Tuesday. According to her, those are things people expect to know when reading my post about the scholarship. So, I'll answer your burning questions here, haha =)

This scholarship that I got will be jointly funded by Newcastle University and UK's Foreign & Commonwealth Office (FCO). The university will contribute the full amount of my tuition fees of £11,715 for the one-year taught masters course, while the FCO will fund the following:
- student visa
- return air tickets
- arrival allowance (i.e. to buy warm clothes and the necessities to settle down)
- a monthly stipend to cover accommodation, food, transport etc.
- thesis allowance
- departure allowance (including an allowance for excess baggage)

Altogether it should be about £23,000 based on my own estimation. (Now I really think I won a jackpot!)

It's a fully-funded scholarship so it basically covers everything. But if I plan to travel in UK and Europe, I have to use my own savings, which is why I have decided to live a frugal life there. Hopefully with my savings and the future savings from my monthly allowances, I would be able to fulfill my dream of backpacking in Europe!

Arches of the Armstrong Building, Newcastle University.
(photo taken from Education UK)

There is no free lunch in the world, so it is understandable that this scholarship comes with several terms and conditions. I personally think that these T&Cs are acceptable because they are not strict after all. They want me to "diligently pursue" my course of study (of course I will) and not involved in political activities (of course I won't), among others.

In addition, I'm required to come back to Malaysia after my study, because the very purpose of this scholarship is to enable scholars to contribute to their home country after gaining the knowledge and skills in UK.

On that note, I particularly agree with what my News Editor, Ghani, told me about "being a good journalist". He said: "You don't necessarily have to study a MA or a PhD to be a good journalist. But what you're going to encounter in UK will help you see things with a different perpective. Try meet more people there and make more friends, get into the life of the British people, and experience life there."

Yeah, "experience" is the key word. That is the word I always stress when answering questions from some friends and relatives.

Some of my relatives told me things like: "Why you wanna study so much? Why wanna get a Masters? Haiya~ not good for a girl to study 'so high level' lar... later very hard to get married!" and bla bla bla...

It's not so much on getting a Masters degree, you know. I want to experience life! I want to see the world! I want to see how journalists work in other countries. (I really hope I could get an internship with BBC during my final semester.)

One of Haan's questions is: "What is your ambition with this scholarship?"

I have actually partly answered that question in my two-page "Personal Statement" in the scholarship application form. In one paragraph, I wrote:

"I believe a postgraduate education in a multicultural studying environment in a UK university will further open my eyes and widen my perspective, and enable me to understand this world better. I want to develop critical thinking and see what is really happening in this world, and to make sense out of it..."

I can't tell you for sure how different studying in UK would be, but I'm very certain that my one-year life in UK will be a life-changing experience, and it will help me become a better journalist. I always believe so. And I pray that I would be the same old "strong Yen Kuan" when I face problems and challenges in UK.

Before I received the official award letter, I had planned to resign on July 1. In fact, I had drafted my resignation letter in June and dated the letter July 1. Isn't it amazing that I actually received the scholarship letter on June 30 itself? That fits into my planned date of resignation very well!

I've tendered my resignation letter on July 1. My official last day should be July 31 but after clearing my leave, my actual last day will be July 24.

Currently, I'm preparing documents for visa application. Tomorrow I'll go renew my passport. British Council will help me book my air ticket later so I don't know when exactly I'll be leaving Malaysia. It should be Sept 14 or 15 if everything goes well.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

关于改名字,我说的其实是……

(注:村上春树新书的书名实在很好用,可以把“跑步”改去任何名词或动词,然后就可以变成一个很酷的作文题目了。)

关于改名字这种听起来很迷信做起来很麻烦的事,任谁也想不到我这种貌似很有性格的女子也会放下我的性格乖乖听话去做了。

是的各位朋友,小女子改名字了。我现在名叫:


琰的意思是“美玉的光彩”,或者"the glitter of gems"。至于第三个字呢,这个字任何现代字典也找不到,只有在康熙字典的第1049页才找到。我翻查了很多网上字典,只知道这字的确存在,只是没人懂它的汉语拼音是什么。康熙字典说它“音郡”,其他的字典连拼音也没放,而师傅说它的读音和我原本的“君”一样。既然没人确定它的汉语拼音,那么我就管它念jūn了。

虽然很多人都会说“行不改名,坐不改姓”,又或者是“人定胜天”什么的,但是小女子还是为了师傅对我原本的名字作的诠释耿耿于怀。我原本的“颜雁君”这个名字的笔画把我归类成“多难”、“短命”、“孤寡”这类的命数,我是很不安的。

或许有人会说这个师傅要赚钱所以把每个人的名字说得很坏。其实不是,不是每个人都需要改名字的。他会先免费帮人“鉴名”,如果是好的名字他说不用改。而坏名字呢,就算他建议你改而你不要改他也不会逼你。

我当然希望人生凡事都是“人定胜天”的,但是有些事,还是不要逆天而行比较好。说迷信,不如说为了心安吧。

师傅原本给的第一个名字是:


峮的意思是“山相连的样子”,或者"a series of mountains"。这个名字看起来很正常,可是我考虑了一个星期,想前想后,想左想右,还是无法接受qūn这个音。很怪啊!

所以最后,我还是选了:

顏琰��

(如果你看不到第三个字,这很正常,因为只有Vista的电脑操作系统才能“读”到这个字。)

虽然这个名字看起来好像不属于这个地球似的,但是我最终还是因为它比较接近我原本的名字的读音而选择了它。这名字改了应该不会影响太大,反正你们多数人都还是会叫我名字的福建音ah kun。

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Welcome sweetie!

弟弟的女儿终于在昨天傍晚报到啦~ 赶在父亲节之前来和她爸庆祝!

四年前我当了阿姨,现在当姑姑了。我的侄女超可爱!名字还没敲定,不过可以先亮相,嘻嘻。

躺在婆婆怀里好像在偷偷笑~

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Fish Leong > Today is Our Valentine's Day

四年前去梁静茹《爱的大游行》的演唱会时,我刚毕业不久。那时和大学的朋友佩君和Ee Ling去,买的是最便宜的票,坐在最角落、最高的位子。想当年我们三个常常在课余时间跑去Gurney Plaza的Red Box唱午餐时间最便宜的卡拉OK,三个傻婆真的很爱唱梁静茹和孙燕姿。所以我们当然没有错过静茹在马来西亚的第一次演唱会。

昨晚,静茹第二次来马开唱,地点还是和四年前的一样:Putra Indoor Stadium。人物方面,依然有我和佩君,可惜Ee Ling没法参与,但是我们也多了一个新人物,就是贤君。我们“三君”,一起走出来真的很有气势,哇哈哈!

真的很感谢程伟,七早八早就帮我们订到门票,而且还有10%折扣呢!抵到烂!

我们虽然坐在山顶,可是是山顶区的第二排,而且对着舞台正中间,风水位啊!好高兴!

静茹,你很棒啊!很好听啊!啊~~ 我喊到喉咙都快破了~~

演唱会8时15分开始,一直到11时45分才结束。三个多小时,实在不够静茹把过去十张专辑累积下来的好歌一一唱完,所以难免会有沧海遗珠啦。不过昨晚她唱的歌,不论是自己的还是别人的,都唱得很好,现场演唱功力毋庸置疑。

我个人最喜欢的环节,是她穿着一袭红色长裙站在钢琴旁边唱一首又一首的经典歌。有她自己的《别再为他流泪》,也有Beyond的《情人》,张惠妹的《记得》,还有陈奕迅的《天下无双》。唱出了自己的味道,好听到让我傻掉!

而最让人惊喜的,是安歌部分阿牛的出现!事前我们都懂嘉宾是光良,万万没有想到阿牛会在后来上台献花,而且还用吉他为静茹伴奏,演唱王菲的《我愿意》!他们回忆起以前在海螺唱歌的日子,老朋友之间的互动,真的让人很感动。听他们说我们马来西亚腔的华语,真的觉得很好笑,很可爱啊!阿牛的出现,可以说是昨晚的高潮;他为我们带来了很多欢乐,他真的是超级搞笑的!

张智成也有来捧表妹的场,只可惜他没献声啊,不然我们就有耳福了。

来张合照!(左起)雁君、佩君、贤君;很喜欢和佩君的合照哩。

四年前的梁静茹,在演唱会上有点伤感。四年后的她很活泼、很放,还会讲废话,哈哈,这就对啦,做人有时要废一点才会开心呐!

她最新的专辑里有一首我很喜欢的歌,是《用力抱着》。我苦练多时,谁知昨晚她没唱。是好听到让人傻掉的歌呢!

用力抱着
作词:小寒
作曲:朱敬然
演唱:梁静茹

寂寞时你像个贝壳
闭上眼 你倔强地捂住双耳
背对背地坐着 我们用沉默在拉扯
看谁的泪先输掉拔河

爱我时你不够严格
总忘了 能够牵手多么难得
我不怕生命有挫折 不怕回忆会有皱褶
唯有你说要放弃 我不愿附和

** 你心里有多少忐忑 交给我去用力抱着
双手还有热 或许能唤起你的不舍
有一天我们伤的心会愈合

心里的忐忑 抱着慢慢就会好的
感动都有了 还有什么不认可
不准我们把爱 给走成了坎坷 **

多少恋人不费唇舌
在一起 却说服彼此不适合
我懂得生命有沼泽 懂得爱会失去光泽
只是在你怀里是 快乐的抉择

重复 **

我心里也有的忐忑 曾经你也勇敢抱着
思念还有歌 唱着我无法对你割舍
相信我们伤的心会愈合

心里的忐忑 时间跟我说会好的
决心放好了 这一次非你不可
若这不是爱 那有过的是什么